Time Not Invested Poem by Ana MARTINEZ

And I keep wasting time playing around, a glance, a smile, some exchange of words...
time that is not invested but just enjoyed.

Thinking a distraction will do for my broken heart,
trying different fun situations to compensate previous lost.
And time keeps passing with nothing making a strong enough impact for me to invest it all,
little flashes, little 'happy' times and all for what? when it will be soon faded away.

Can't help myself but to go back to the hidden box of memories and open it again...
big mistake when glancing again at the past we with hold;
a mix of feelings are emerged making me smile and cry all together.
Is it me or all seems brighter in the memories? maybe cause we select the most pleasant ones.
That's why I have to keep remembering why I don't want to go back to it, why is not worth it, why that is not what I want anymore.

The key to moving on this 'time not invested' is to constantly ask you if this is what you want. If not cut it off once and for all, scape, move, be set free, and try not to look back.
Yes, you will miss the companionship, yes, you will miss being spoiled and teated and getting all that attention but keep in mind all that is momentary and will fade eventually.

Life in it's present and future and even past is all a big invested, I just realized my time was not being put to work but just passing pleasurably - my advice - invest it in what you really want. (not in 'the meanwhile', not in the 'just for fun' but in the 'this is what I truly want'. - I just did.

And if there is no one to invest it in - wait till there is someone worth it that can provide for what you are looking for.