To Pretend Poem by jess deaves

I try real hard to smile my words are not so sure
I go through all the actions to seem more secure
I laugh, i smile, i act so full of life just to ensure
People cant, dont see through, dont see how im unsure

I cant fake a thing and lying is not my style
So, say nothing its for the best just put on your best smile
And afterall in a bit you can withdraw to peace for a while
This act is so hard it hurts like metal but in the end its worth going the mile

My words feel so clear but get lost when i translate
I know in my head whats there it just cant come out straight
God, when this is over i can imagine the lifted weight
The hope that springs to wait for the blissful state

These days my heart is an open wound
So i hide away in my empty room
Wait for it beating to once again resume
These inner deamons are made to fight, i wont let them consume