Until A Dawning Came Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

It did not seem for me,
Too long of a wait.
Until a dawning came.
With a clarity to awaken my mind.
The experience of it,
Made more sense than ever before.
Since I had ignored to appreciate,
What it was I had.
Blessed to be given to take for granted.

There were times I would look,
Outside of myself for someone else.
To appear as if they too knew.
And could see through,
Superficiality detached completely...
From a nonexistent sincerity.
Until that day a dawning came.
And I awakened to realize,
The happiness I already felt to feel.
And undenied to know it real.
I wanted to share it not give away.
But how could that be done,
If my sincerity to have it...
Was thought by another to be,
Too theatrical.
Superficial.
And expressed with an excitement.
Impossible to accept as real.
So...
Even though it was difficult.
It began to dawn on me,
I could do without the dramatics.
Until it will be discovered,
My happiness to have it is no act.