What's Deep Inside? Poem by Alexie Whitman

With a fake smile pasted on my face
And yes this is my life's worst phase
Don't know if I can open up to anyone
So I chose to write it all down
My entire body is shaking
And my knees are pressed against my chest
I try to sleep but I am really depressed
Don't know why am I feeling all this?
Is it my imagination or life's gist
I wake up everyday without any spark
Why does everthing seems so dark?
I have totally lost myself
Because of all the pain I have stacked in my heart's shelf
I hardly recognize this new version of myself
I feel so pathetic being helpless
Its really hard to function like this
When I really don't know whats going on inside me
When I always pretend that joy is all I feel
I have no idea what I am writing down
I just want all of this to be over till the next dawn
All this emptiness is destroying me
Right now, I just need a lot of peace
I walk around with this sadness all day
Which is hardly visible on my face
But You'll know if you would look deep
Cause I have been hiding it deep inside me!