Where Are You Going With This...'It'? Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I sat to listen.
While jokes were made.
And I felt degraded to be laughed at.
To sit and feel both mental and physical pain.
Endured to keep concealed.

'Keep your focus and faith.'
Repeatedly within me I heard a voice,
Continue to say.
And I would stay doing just that.
Obeying.

I sat with perceptions of being deceived.
Too strong were these feelings.
Too strong I knew I 'had' to believe.

'Keep your focus and faith.
The acts of these epople are trivialized.
One day your eyes will clear.
And your mind will open wide.'

And days with years as tears I cried dried,
I would sit and wonder 'why'...
My expectations of others were kept so high.

'For those that do with a doing to achieve,
Obstacles will be placed on your path...
To test your faith.
And accomplish the removing them.
The removing of them you will succeed.
To then be awarded blessings received.'

Then I would ask after doubts would pass,
'Are You God? '
Only to feel a presence validated.
To leave me convinced...of 'IT'.

~Where are you going with this...'IT'? ~

Anywhere I choose.