Why Do Guys Choose Me? Poem by mona martinez

i hate bringing ppl into my misery,
i feel like they don't deserve it,
why are they still here,
by my side suffering with me?
they can have such a better life,
than dealing with what they can say,
what they can do,
what's right, what's wrong,
it feels so wrong,
that they give up more,
to make me happy,
i like the attention,
but i hate feeling guilty,
it's almost like i'm waiting,
waiting for them to have enough of me,
and just leave,
am i really worth this much trouble,
when they can have any girl they want,
i don't really feel all that special,
i feel broken and unworthy of love,
i hate feeling this way,
but at times,
it feels so true.