Why Do I Hurt This Way Poem by JAMES T. ADAIR

Dear God, I prayed to you in church today
Why does my soul hurt this way?
I feel so torn up inside
I only try to care
And for every time I've tried
I have cried
It is not about pride
I just cannot go on
It's like I've got no tune left in my song

My stomach feels in a knot
as my heart pounds, then not
against the cage that is my chest
I've tried so hard to understand
I've given it my best
Is this just another heartbreaking test?
Well then I fail to understand the lesson
surely this is a jest
Please let my weariness find rest

Without honesty
Without truth
Without trust
Without care
Without compassion
Without reason
Without faith
What is there to lend?
I thought being true, I found in her a friend