Will Not Be Back In A Hurry... Poem by Sebastian Melmoth

Living in daily fear and worry how long will this pain last
Feels like an eternity of personal suffering, the experience of being the towns outcast

Will I ever know happiness again, do I have the strength or even heart to carry on?
Will my remaining time left continue like this or will I find peace staring in the sun?

The trap of emotions and feelings crushing my once spirited soul
Now facing my last days beaten down, broken no point left in aiming for the goal

Will I pass peacefully into the night another forgotten failure that didn't take flight
How can I ever be free with so many questions left unanswered it doesn't seem right

I look up to speak to loved ones god I hope they can hear me
Seeking the guidance that you know isn't coming may be its a sign the world hates and fears me

How did this happen where did I go wrong?
All I've ever tried to do is help others for so long

It's Life's cruel fate to those that do good to end with a broken spirit
The sound of hope lost I'm standing hear unable to hear it

When my life flashes before me happier times I hope will flash in my mind that I pray
When I meet my heavenly family I hope a hug embrace and an I Love You I will say

Earth won't morn my passing another lost human trapped in the defeat of living
Leaving the haters and hurters to keep on sinning
But know I will be finally free, know that there will be no more pain no more worry
Don't cry for me because I will not be back in a hurry.