Will You Forgive Me? Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I'm not hinting.
I don't know how!
I'm not suggesting.
I wish I could somehow!
I'm not demanding.
That would be too rude.
I don't want to insult...
Others may,
But to me that's crude!
I don't want to say nothing...
That would imply I don't care!
I will go ahead...
And do this anyway!
You will know I am aware!
I-am-gonna-beg!
How about that?
Will you forgive me?
For being self absorbed...
And being so unfair?
By turning you off and showing my back!
I now have much empathy,
For you that wasn't there!
I hope you recognize I'm changing from inside.
With a sensitivity that came I once lacked...
That I wasn't trying to hide!

Please don't do that! Not right now!
You make me nervous when you cry!