Wounds, Fears, Tears, And Redemption Poem by David Knox

I'll return to the place I feel safe
But that place is unsafe
It's a place of control
Where I console
Myself with the contrived reality that measures the degree
The contrived fantasy where I can control what happens to me

Chorus:
Don't really want to cut IT CLOSE
Cause I just MIGHT DIE) x 2
(Don't want to go too deep
Because I'm a coward of what's beyond) x2

But I'll continue because I don't feel the love
I see the evil
I've tasted loneliness
It's my daily bread
And yet the feeling I dread
But I'll continue because I don't see any hope
There's not even an escape in dope
Nowhere to hide in drugs
They push me deeper into the darkness
And make me love it
So no more drugs I want to get out

Don't really cut it close
Cause I just might die x 2
Don't want to go too deep
Because I'm a coward of what's beyond x 2

Oh oh oh oh there's a light in my darkness
Oh oh oh oh something's different about this feeling
Oh oh oh oh is this what they call hope
Oh oh oh oh this must be love (the lines after the oh's are echoed)

He told me I was loved
I laughed
He told me I was precious
I scoffed
But now I feel it
For once
I want to give up the control
But life HITS HARD!

Don't really want to cut too close
Cause I just might die
Don't want to go too deep
Because I'm still unsure of death

God where have you gone?
No God where have I gone
Bring me back to you
Bring me back and give me new blood!

Don't really want to trust
But this is the only hope I got
Don't know how to love
But He makes me feel loved!

Oh oh oh oh God I know it's you
Oh oh oh oh God there's no other
Oh oh oh oh God You'll take me through the pain
Oh oh oh oh God.....
Thank you for a second chance.