I shook your hand
I took the loss
Escape was impossible
I took the loss
...
The hand of friendship was offered
The hand of friendship was slapped away
The trajectory of the spurned
...
We are the goldfish in the bowl
We are known as Mr. and Mrs. Goldfish
I don't mind this transparency, a benign surveillance
...
If obnoxiousness is art consider this your exhibition gallery
Different stages of difficult behavior hang on the walls
"Don't touch" but some illiterate fool usually ends up doing just that
...
Love sighted through an opening in deep forest
A blur that moves quickly and vanishes
But leaves a lasting impression
...
She is the queen of the replacements
Her people await further orders in a large open-air building
A former factory - old and gray and damp, it looks like the 1950's
...
Have you ever heard Saturday morning radio?
Is the radio programming different on Saturday morning compared to weekdays?
She dreads small talk and making his lunch
...
Physical fitness goals
How many pulls-ups can you do?
Based on your age, there is a number set for how many pull-ups you can do
...
I liked how he wrote of clouds and being outdoors
Even though I didn't care for clouds or being outdoors
I like to be indoors with the windows closed and the curtains drawn tightly
...
The first instinct when they see a boy with a smile
Is to try and knock the smile off the face of the boy
So he can be dragged down into dull servitude
Like them and their runt-eyed litters
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I was way too into you
You robbed me of humor, you robbed me of depth
You bundled me up into your coat of lies
And carried me away on a bullying pretext
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Lynn knowingly enrolled in family disappointment
Passed on the genes of rootless migration
Conceived a child thinking it was only a temporary situation
...
I don't need you to play policeman in my life
Go haunt another human and leave me alone
If you can accept these terms then you can come along with me on a house to house search
...
I wrote your name down on a slip of paper
And put it in a small envelope, the type we pay our bills with
I tucked it into the right breast pocket of my shirt
And lay down with my arms placed to my chest
...
Over the wall of memory
A long drop to remembrance
When I don't see your face for three days or more, it becomes a smoke demon on a misty night
Drive a car through its center
...
Single moments have no value
If held too tightly by a person, they will weigh that person down
Pulling them through the depths of drowsy self-love and self-defeating fathoms where every future holds pessimism
...
Where Gwendoline stays is far from here
She takes two buses and a train
But the distance of desire is much further
...
I don't care if anyone believes me
What I saw in her was not what man expects
They took a sample of my blood
And left me with no memory by the side of the road
...
A closed society woman is my ideal female
The kind of woman who does not use four letter words
Who doesn't believe "empowerment" is sexual exploitation
...
Not above praying in the dark for just a glimpse of her adventure in a dress
And not knowing how to get there is an ode to somewhere I've never been
I was less intimidated when I saw her in the laundromat
...
Hello there, My name is Raj Dronamraju. I have previously published three volumes of poetry - THE RETURN OF THE MAGNIFICENT NINNY, SOLIDARITY WITH THE FLESH EATING MOSAIC, and TRAVELS WITH THE ANTI-JOHNNY APPLESEED on Post-Egoism press (not self published) . My publisher's page for me is here http: //rajbooks.postegoism.net I am also the author of several novels. In addition, I am the editor of a poetry and art magazine 21st Century Flow - Links can be found on my poetry blog www.rajdronamraju.wordpress.com. I am an American living abroad in Malaysia. I am married to a Malaysian woman and teach English to make a living.)
I Don't Even Smile
I shook your hand
I took the loss
Escape was impossible
I took the loss
I went indoors, contorted into an ugly shape by desire
I came back out beaming phoniness
I couldn't find shelter indoors
There's a day coming where this will not end so easily
When it will be taken hard like a blood vendetta
And passed on to future generations
And that's when a smile loses all meaning
Is merely the go to expression of a demolished psyche
Is flashed with the frequency of a bellboy summoned for the carrying of guests' bags
At that time, I don't even smile
And I'll say people are a black hole
And I get sucked in and then get spit out in a place I don't recognize
Not worried about being lost
Not worried about being alone
I don't even smile
For you, endurance finally breaks
Washes over us with violence
I will snap, I can't shake this off anymore
I find Raj's poems extremely refined, amusing, entertaining, educational and admirable.