Forgive me mother, for I have sinned,
those deeds shamed you and drowned me in guilt.
Forgive me also for those selfish acts,
which ached your temples and burdened your heart.
Pretending to have him,
Tossing back your head and laughing.
Flapping your pretty lashes with a shiver,
He vanishes when you look in the mirror.
The childhood’s innocence ended,
When with him, you blended.
Now it remains a far away memory,
Of imitating your mother in a red sari.
Her mind hinted desertion,
While her heart wept for preservation.
Her cold skin ached for warmth
But her eyes saw the wrath.
For those 10 seconds of euphoric high I live,
in a delusional state
the entire time of the day.
So that when the high hits me and
Silent tears drenches
The white fabric
clinging to your body like a scared child which
enthralls me into a whirl of emotions as I
Fatigued hearts and monotonous heartbeats,
Diminishing hope struggles to keep the heat.
Our egos conquer the understanding and
Feasts over love creating a misunderstanding.
When he asks,
"Are you tired? "
Nod your head
and he'll pursue more tenderly.
Some joy, they said,
In her peaceful smile as she waved
Like a nymph in the first guess
Or was she a heartbroken mistress?