shelby alwaysconfused

sitting next to you,
your driving me home.

you were my first love,
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sitting here alone,
my arms throb..
stinging up through my shoulder...
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you are making me cry, and given me a hard time to write anything down.
i shut my eyes and take a deep breathe, hopeing it will make the nausea go away.
damnit! i cant even think straight! ! !
my eyes are all red, for the same reason that i have tears running down my cheeks and neck.
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Wake up to this bright shiny day. how can you let it go to waste?
how can u just sit there and not even stare? come see the blue ocean and skies. smile for your alive and breathing one more time.
wake up to the light from the sun above.
how can you stay there and not say a word?
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Dont give up im going to find you. ive been trying all this time, but what have you been waiting for?
you havent even moved!
you havent tried to look, if you had, you would have found me by now.
im not that hard to miss or misplace.
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from the first time we met i knew we were meant to be.
i would of never believed it. could it have been that you were the one for me? that you were made for me?

you stole my heart and kept it for yourself.
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tell me i cant do this..
i cant do that..
i cant love him...
i cant be fat..
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cover my arms, my legs and stomach, and hips..

they remind me of my life's roller coaster flips.
up and down and scarie turns.
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There has to be a reason why you make me feel this way? !
is it your eyes,
those eyes that confuse the way i stand?
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A grey, unshiney day.
A house with a broken soul.
dirt as dry as shattered dreams.
darkness swims through the skies,
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Your love for me is so strong, i couldnt just forget you.

your always with me when i need a friend.
when your not with me all i can wonder is where you are, or what ur doing right this moment.
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Ive got 3 words to say, these words i just used the other day. their sweet and simple and oh so true. i said these words when i thought of you...
i love you, i love you, i love you. <3
<3<3<3
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i just wish that maybe someone could love me
just maybe i wont wake up everyday with this pain.
its like no one knows how i feel
.. no one believes that all my scars are real.
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for the last time..
i dont know what to say anymore.
i dont know what to do.
my mind is racing, with eternal thoughts of you.
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the walls are closing in,
the ground cracks and crumbles
under my unsteady feet.
they creek and groan, withering away.
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laying here eyes squeezed shut,
praying to god that he can hears my plees.

hot and sweaty hands on my cheek,
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walking through the halls, a fake smile plastered on.

waving to strangers and giggling at not funny jokes.
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when the darkness rolled in..
i was terrified.
too afraid to open my eyes.
too afraid that ill unlock my gate of guilt and pain
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you took away my soul
you rid me of life.

you took away my control
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