Ali Joanne

I love having you as a friend
You make my life loads brighter
Even on a miserable day
You make my problems seem lighter
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Why is it my memories haunt me
When i had kept then so hidden before
I thought i had managed to keep them away
And bolt them behind a closed door
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Where can you run to
When no-one else is around
When everyone else is sleeping
And there isnt one single sound
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Theres this place inside my head
Where everythings kept in tight
Even when i want to open it
My mind keeps it in with fright
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It still boils around inside
No matter what the day
Its still attacking my life
And i cant make it go away
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In my mind i have the answers
Im just trying to let them free
I need to talk, they need to escape
They just need to let me be
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Talking to an expressionless face
A stranger whom I don't know
Wondering what they will think
When I let my true feelings show
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I can see the blood
But I can't feel a thing
My body's gone numb
But I can't stop
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The drops do fall
Only late at night
She hides in a corner
Away from sight
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If tears were a waterfall
Your body is its master
When the storm is picking up
It flows a little faster
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A cut or two
Just to get through the day
A cut or two
No more I say
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I wonder in the shadows
Hoping you can’t see
Wondering what it’s like
To feel that sun on me
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Just stand with me
Don`t run ahead
I might fall back
It might be misread
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A smile, a laugh
Is all you see
Yet do you know
The real me
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Don`t tell me i`m not alone
Where are you at 3am
When my mind is racing
And i can`t stay calm
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We may not share a surname
Or have to same set of genes
But still you stood by my side
Through, good, bad and the in-between
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Do you ever wonder what it would be like
To take that knife and end it. Dead.
Does the thought even cross your mind
Because it goes round and round in my head
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A mask to hide emotion
A shade of grey and blue
Built to last, built to hide
Everything that is true
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Do you see the panic racing through my mind
Do you see the shaking I try to hide
Do you see the sweat sliding down my back
Do you see the tears I have cried
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Like a shadow it follows
A separate part of me
I close my eyes to hide it
It's something I don't want to see
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