Comfort kills creativity is what they said to me
And the day before
But whatever has creativity gotten me
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I loved him and he tolerated me
Horrifyingly
I write in
Searching for the higher me
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Everyone wants to be better. Those who dont, don't know no better. No better than you or I. My soul is fettered, still I look to the sky.
Call me as I fall, an angel with broken wings. A siren who dont sing. Admire, call me anything. After all, it is only I holding me back. I look to the sky and know what I lack.
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I want to travel the world she said with a sigh
See the heavens, mountains, pillars of the sky
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I'm drowning she said to her brother
My soul is pounding she said to her mother
I'm suffocating she said to her sister
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I live for the moments of joy
As seldom as they are
Allow me to describe the joys I've experienced thus far
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Watch his hand as he rambles
Avoid the hand on the clock
Lest you get caught, rot
And your head will
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Need
Who am I?
Why am I no-one?
Why am I nobody?
Don't know why I'm writing this passage
Is it to appear interesting or is it because I am lacking
In interests, and hobbies and excitement
My life, my dreams, i write it
Pens, pencils, hear the clack of the keyboard
How is it that I am twenty
How can I feel old and young in one moment
Stressed and weighed but so horribly confused
My worries and anxieties are growing infused
With anger and sorrow, whatever, I don't know
By acknowledging my condition, is it for mitigation.
Is it for relief, is it a quest for belief
Or is this effort just a delusion
More confusion
The screws in
My head are not loosening
They are growing tighter and tighter
I can't breathe
F**k it
I'm not a writer
My prose is sloppy
Schemes are choppy
I got no time to rhyme
Syntax, what is it really?
Please, don't get near me
I need not for you to hear me
It's bizarre, i need you to fear me
I need you to need me
Not in a relation type of way
But a want, a day by day
To see me and wonder
Because i am no-one
wonder, but really in vain
Thunder, lightening, and rain
Sunny clouds on the avenue
These feelings are not new
My esteem is in prominent decline
No matter the time, no matter the rhyme
It is fleeting, a thin whisper, I strain
I stretch my neck for the chance to hear it
But i can't go near it, my efforts are in vain
Because it becomes painfully clear
Our efforts, our actions are just to approach
Confidence, but is not for us
It is to avoid the reproach
Of our tribe-mates
Please, don't cast me astray
I made myself pretty
I am trying to be interesting
I walk tall
I don't need you
You don't need me
sure, sure, that is true
We don't need each other's approval
Repetition is just an attempt of removal
Of our most innate desire
To be loved and admired
I dont need you
Who are you really?
You are me, clearly
My monday is your tuesday
The movie you watched is the game i played
Movies, games, exercise
Just a way to pass time
A way to ascend and climb
Through the upheavals of life
Husbands and wives
Children and pets
We are the same
Through sun or rain
We try to differentiate
We seek to create
An air of mystery
An air of "you are not me"
Ooh, I am different
You have never met anyone like me
Instead of 5 hours of tv, I watch three
Instead of kicking the ball, I read
Instead of following, I lead
Advice, i ignore, you heed
See, i do not need
Don't bite the hand that feeds
Travel the land and seas
Look, I am wise too
I can sing
Ooh ooh ooh
I am deep
Boo hoo hoo
Look at me, I am different
No, i dont need you
But please look
Please look
Please notice me
You must notice that I don't need you
You must realize that I am not you
You must, i need you to
Oops, i don't need you
I don't need you
I need you to know that i dont need you
Cement it in your brain,
Repeat the refrain
Need you, I do not
Not a need I have for you
Please, can't you see
That you have no power over me
You must know that
I need you to know that
What? No, i don; t need you
What ever gave you that clue?
Who told you?
Who knew?
A lie, a sham, a ruse
The loose screws
The dull knives
No light upstairs
Not a care, not a fear,
No need at all
For human approval
I told you over and over
I don't need you
I do not need you
You are nothing to me
Please, please
You must know you are nothing to me
I do not need you
I do not need you
no, no need for you
Who? Who?
You?
I need you?
No, it is not true.