I can still remember trying, to make a good first impression,
But now I'm dying, dying to show you who I really am,
Put on a bright face and tuck away all the stress 'n' depression,
But in the process I barricaded the real me behind some invisible dam.
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Gotta curse my loyalty, every day, ‘cause it’s the only thing that makes me stay,
Gives you the right to say whatever you wanna say, from your shadow I can’t stray,
A wounding hold, like flame to a moth, branches caught in the rapids froth,
Like a slave, tattered cloth, fed on sparse helpings of your love ‘n’ cares sweet broth.
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Spent casings pool, and blood puddles, in the foreboding trenches,
The floral decorations border sunny park benches.
Ducking and weaving, taking cover as the glass borders bullet holes,
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Watch them flee, as he tears this city apart,
Is he on a rampage, or just searching for his heart?
No one knows, everyone goes, avoiding the carnage in his wake,
Only his rage shows, no one sees the tear flows, just feel the earth’s shake.
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Silk worm weaves a delicate and vital cocoon,
Makes you wonder, if he knows what’ll happen soon.
I know I do, to change so drastically and never be the same,
Thrown off my mortal aim, Outta the frying pan and into the flame.
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Solitary, the determined man marches across the earth, this land of scorched hearth,
In the war he proved his worth, been a soldier at heart ever since his birth.
Couple dozen years have passed, since he lost his friend, it all happened too fast,
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Nobody can see this hidden war,
Where the rich own the rights to the poor,
And corruption rots us all to the core,
Ignore it, lock it up behind the closed door,
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Hold on tight, we got a chance to win this fight,
With all your might, just try and survive the night
The odds are against, they’ve got us fenced,
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Teleprompters
I can still remember trying, to make a good first impression,
But now I'm dying, dying to show you who I really am,
Put on a bright face and tuck away all the stress 'n' depression,
But in the process I barricaded the real me behind some invisible dam.
See your smile every time we talk,
Every time it reminds me, how you think I'm something I'm not,
And how I have to talk this talk and walk this walk,
Let the real me watch while some imposter ties all the truths into knots,
Even though I can't hold on to this facade, I can't give it a break,
Still acting like someone else, someone who isn't real, someone made up and fake.
Why I'd ever put on this act in the first place, I'll never know,
Nervousness, didn't think I was good enough for the likes of you,
Made a plan to make up someone else, not let who I am show,
It worked a little too good, 'cause you don't know, don't even have a clue.
But I decided to take a risk and told everything I was scared to,
Showed you my life, even though I was terrified of your judgement, your sentence,
Hearing your tone when it all settles in, wondering what you'd do,
Let go, 'cause I'm finally outta the fake role, just pray for some repentance,
So now you know that I'm no one to look up to, underneath this calm composure,
You can see whats really going on now, after I committed to my exposure.
Then I hear your response, raise me up after I fell,
'That’s where your wrong, if you tried to protect me from all this,
you went through Hell for me, so there’s really no secret here to tell.'
Its comfort, like finally being home, unbearable stress shatters and melts away to bliss