I watch you sleep
Temporarily paralyzed
Quite and still
Lips slightly parted
...
Before winter ends
I'd love to warm myself up with memories
Flashbacks of my experience with cold
I bet you were never told
...
I'm going through it all over again
Its like it was just yesterday when he forced his way in and teared me apart...
From enjoying my early adulthood without constantly having to rub on my bleeding scars...
A reminder of how much of a survivor I'm...
...
Love Letters I Wrote For You
Love letters I wrote for you
Hard prayers I said for you
Tears I cried for you
Fears I had to lose you
Love letters I wrote for you
with thoughts giving me a heartache
Pain of knowing I'll never get to see you and
I'll never get to hold you in my arms
Pain of realising I'll never get to mother you, to watch you sleep, to see your cute smile and your silly face when you want to cry
The love I had hoped we'll share
through our bond session when you would have held my finger with your tiny hand for dear life
Heartache of knowing I'll never watch you grow
I'll never hold your tiny hand in mine
so as to take the fears of taking your first
step away
Love letters I wrote for you
Wet papers soaked with my ever
drying tears
Delayed by the fears of losing you
Love letters I wrote for you
with hard prayers I said for you
Hoping the Lord will tell me
how you holding up in heaven
Love letters I wrote for you
That even the best post office man
couldn't deliver for you're
in a place only angels could reach
I wrote you love letters my Angel
with many words that can't even
begin to describe how I feel
without being given a chance
to mother you
Feeling of knowing you hear me
keeps me alive
Someone who's never walked a step in your path will never understand why your foot prints are sloppy and moving around in circles at certain points, going backwards before finally heading forward for another few steps before the repetition of the same process happens again. Flower
And then I finally understood that I can either be what I've been through or choose to break myself in half to begin a fresh start for the ones after me and the ones who come from me.Flower
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Thank you so much I will