Lost Concentration Poem by Nomfundo Mtsweni

I watch you sleep
Temporarily paralyzed
Quite and still
Lips slightly parted
My eyes move to your chest
I watch you inhale
Closing my eyes a little pained
Wishing I'd be the oxygen
Your chest is rising up for
Making a way to your lungs
Two seconds in there
I could actually know how much of me
Is in your system
I'd take a quick glance at your heart
To see how much space I occupy
Your chest dropping
Is a reminder of the impossibilities
I wonder from which tree you bloom from
Your Roots much firmer
Your Leaves More Greener
You're a shade that brings warmth
In cold winter days
A cold chilled breeze during hot summer days
Like the height of a salix herbacea
You've only been here for the shortest time
But I'm addicted to you
Freeing myself from addiction
Seems poisonous
The thought of letting go
Weakens my joints
As I run out of breath
My feet suddenly can't carry my body
I freeze for a moment
I stop and collect myself
I need to drain half of you in my system
You're a dream too far to reach
A goal too high to score
If it means dying a little
I'd love to be awaken
When I can no longer, await on your sunniest smile to make dark days seem bright
When the Butterflies in my stomach, wouldn't wait for the mention of your name to move
When the thought of you, wouldn't make me map your name on every book
Dimming the light of my concentration all the time
I want to be free.
To swim in the ocean of my thoughts without being hooked by your face;
Listen to the sound of silence without hearing your voice in my head.
I need a rehab
To get rid of my being you addiction
I want to love you
But be able to live without you
You're an illumination of great distraction
Very powerful to overcome depression
Yet very strong to cause distraction
You're an attraction of sadness
Because you do not love me the same way.