*4* Shades Of Grey. Poem by Shelley L Baxter

I am truly sorry...
for the hurt I bring to you.
For I know that when you're happy
one look at me and your blue too.

I cannot seem to control my pain,
put a 'Real smile' upon my face,
even when I try so hard sadness
is etched into my grace.

Your eyes hold such happiness,
contentment like I have known,
spring to your step and joyfulness
like most my life has shown.

Now all I see are shades of grey.
The shadows have stolen my soul.
Falling on my knee's now lord...
my prayer is to be made whole.

Sigh~even my faith does not get through
when my heart is heavy laden.
Depression like I never knew
has released my heart to hating.

I will place my pen upon my desk.
My throbbing head into my hands,
I will close my eyes and seek (Him) ...
in hopes of waking from barren lands.

Written in March of 2005.