A Lonely After Life Poem by catty Alonzo

I could breathe freely and feel every inch
on my body the breezes of air that wind
had embraced me,

I can see the light and know that it hurts
my eyes when too much ray of the sun
meets my glance,

I can grasp for a hold when everything
is humid at nightfall when the sun had
just hovers at the surface of the earth,

When I am about to sleep and laid on
my soft bed and start to think where
will I be after life,

I got so scared, I felt so lost, and I felt
alone and felt totally lonely,

I am not sure if I can hold the idea of
dying when I knew for myself that I am
not ready to leave all the memories
behind me, all the people I cared
about and all the happy thoughts that
made me live longer, that made me
continue breathing for life,

I will be lost when I see them not,

If wanting for more life is sinful and
selfish I won’t consider such thing if
dying means all I cherished where
not there with in my grasp,

I’m scared of dying, I’m scared of
being alone, but what can I do when
at the end fate will lead me there.