After All That’s What She Would Wish For Me Poem by Niki Nicholas Nkuna

Never know how it is felt to lose a sibling
The one who ran after you or stood first in front of you
Who taught you how to play, joke and steal, mock and lie
Nostalgic moments of super love I felt them dear
When our mother bought us birth days and Christmas presents
When we play kids games with no external interference
When we only care about the play itself and nothing burdensome at all

When it finally hits home I cried until I had no drop of a tear left
My sops lasted until the day after the funeral
Largely ignored by my living siblings and parents due to their own enduring agony
Funeral day reminisced a steep ascend of the cliff that got colder as days go by
Sympathy love dissipates with the height of solemnity

My body shook with trepidation as I realised I won’t be seeing my sister again
Remembrance of her name is a constant stab in my heart, as it is even today
As a consequence I have an insidious pain that induce fluctuating moods
How am I going to put up with this and for how long?
I guess my friend’s advice could be right
That I do all the right things that will make her smile incessantly in heaven
After all that’s what she would wish for me

N Nkuna,15 January 2014