poet Charles Bukowski

Charles Bukowski

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An Almost Made Up Poem

I see you drinking at a fountain with tiny
blue hands, no, your hands are not tiny
they are small, and the fountain is in France
where you wrote me that last letter and
I answered and never heard from you again.
you used to write insane poems about
ANGELS AND GOD, all in upper case, and you
knew famous artists and most of them
were your lovers, and I wrote back, it' all right,
go ahead, enter their lives, I' not jealous
because we' never met. we got close once in
New Orleans, one half block, but never met, never
touched. so you went with the famous and wrote
about the famous, and, of course, what you found out
is that the famous are worried about
their fame - not the beautiful young girl in bed
with them, who gives them that, and then awakens
in the morning to write upper case poems about
ANGELS AND GOD. we know God is dead, they' told
us, but listening to you I wasn' sure. maybe
it was the upper case. you were one of the
best female poets and I told the publishers,
editors, " her, print her, she' mad but she'
magic. there' no lie in her fire." I loved you
like a man loves a woman he never touches, only
writes to, keeps little photographs of. I would have
loved you more if I had sat in a small room rolling a
cigarette and listened to you piss in the bathroom,
but that didn' happen. your letters got sadder.
your lovers betrayed you. kid, I wrote back, all
lovers betray. it didn' help. you said
you had a crying bench and it was by a bridge and
the bridge was over a river and you sat on the crying
bench every night and wept for the lovers who had
hurt and forgotten you. I wrote back but never
heard again. a friend wrote me of your suicide
3 or 4 months after it happened. if I had met you
I would probably have been unfair to you or you
to me. it was best like this.

Poem Submitted: Monday, January 13, 2003
Poem Edited: Sunday, July 16, 2017

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  • Ria bird (10/26/2020 1:33:00 PM)

    It’s soo sad... anyway amazing

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  • Ria bird (10/26/2020 1:33:00 PM)

    It’s soo sad... anyway amazing

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  • Ankwasa Harlord (8/17/2020 8:00:00 AM)

    Wonderful piece I have really grown a second hair in this

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  • The Road (2/16/2020 2:51:00 AM)

    What has ever been fair in life. Mr. Shake the Sphere.

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  • Mirela AthanasMirela Athanas (7/14/2019 3:05:00 PM)

    Superb, only he could write this...almost..

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  • Nicole SettimiNicole Settimi (3/19/2019 6:32:00 PM)

    “so you went with the famous and wrote
    about the famous, and, of course, what you found out
    is that the famous are worried about
    their fame - not the beautiful young girl in bed
    with them, who gives them that, and then awakens
    in the morning to write upper case poems about
    ANGELS AND GOD.”

    I want to marry these lines. Marry them.
    My absolute favorite Bukowski, ever.

    Xx NDS

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  • V Vijaya kumar (1/16/2019 5:22:00 AM)

    Simplest words in simplest form loaded with emotional bond words strive to convey

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  • Quenia LalitaQuenia Lalita (12/27/2018 6:40:00 PM)

    it is always unfair when it happens.

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  • Sma VoustenSma Vousten (8/10/2018 10:09:00 AM)

    My favorite poem, from my fav Buk.

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  • Britte NinadBritte Ninad (8/10/2018 1:05:00 AM)

    wonderfully penned-

    I would have
    loved you more if I had sat in a small room rolling a
    cigarette and listened to you in the bathroom,
    but that didn' happen.

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  • Haidee Majola (7/23/2018 8:20:00 PM)

    Wow! Here's a poet who writes simply but fascinatingly of simple things.

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  • John DoyleJohn Doyle (4/21/2018 4:11:00 AM)

    Wonderful poetry.

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  • Pen AnthonyPen Anthony (12/18/2016 9:41:00 PM)

    ” I loved you
    like a man loves a woman he never touches, only
    writes to, keeps little photographs of.... CLASSIC

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  • R SoosR Soos (11/22/2016 8:03:00 AM)

    total honesty that is tough to find, even in poetry: if I had met you I would probably have been unfair to you or you to me.

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  • Unknown SpiritUnknown Spirit (8/25/2016 1:34:00 AM)

    love you like a man loves a woman he never touches only wites to or keeps little photographs of.
    moving line of this inspirational poem. it showes essence of true love which is totally beyond ordinary sorts.
    far from any lust and physical charms and apart from transitory and temporary loves.

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  • Patricia GranthamPatricia Grantham (8/16/2016 1:07:00 PM)

    A poem that is full of hidden truths and innuendos. Strictly Bukowski. Compelling.

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  • Thomas CaseThomas Case (11/23/2015 12:14:00 PM)

    beautiful...through Buk's tough exterior, his romantic heart shines through.

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  • Souren MondalSouren Mondal (9/23/2015 5:52:00 AM)

    An extraordinary poem.. I couldn't even guess at all that it would end like that.. Bewildered, shocked, and still somehow, I am mildly amused..

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    Mariana KirkMariana Kirk(11/12/2017 7:03:00 AM)

    What a wonderful comment! I agree!

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  • Nel OmofolarinNel Omofolarin (7/29/2015 8:41:00 AM)

    Honestly, there is brilliance in this man's mind....I read just one of his works and I haven't been able to conqure the almost irresistible urge to read more of Bukowski's work...Genius! And this poem is another wonderful piece from a great mind

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  • Raymond Farrell (4/27/2015 7:04:00 AM)

    This is what I like about Bukowski, no BS just the real deal.

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