Apparent Loss Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Recognizing patterns of lonely sorrow, as they travel through
this heart and brain, identifying themselves purposely on
their way through.

Surfing away on waves of emptiness, being taken out to sea time
and again, never finding a way to stay out of it's clutches for
good in this life.

Always wondering, awe-struck, how intense feelings become when
loss is apparent or staring me in the face once again.

Knowing the excessive turmoil that will always accompany each
incident, never able to prepare for it - being thrown beneath
the stormy ocean's undertow, unable to get a hold for a long,
long while.

Insinuating self time and again, trying to grasp shores of a
lifetime, attempting to save this entirely mortal life of
being.

Wondering at the ability of it to take me each and every
time into a land of such dismal hopelessness and untold grief.

Being piled under heavy tears, drowning forever in depths of
untoward mysterious heartaches throughout life on earth.