Burying Life Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Realizing the depth of emotion and it's far-reaching
implications, squinching inside, afraid that it may
touch my conscious mind and send me reeling into an
inner space that cannot be handled.

All jumbled up and hidden quite deep, feelings cannot
be felt because they're kept in a steel chest far from
me.

When they manage to sneak out and up, getting confused
and feeling a lot of pain.

But not understanding and a rage beginning to boil
over, for no known reason frightening one into a pre-
verbal time.

Becoming still and silent, hiding within, afraid to
come out and be hurt.

There is no way out until having completely calmed
down and squashed all feeling and emotion back into
the steel chest buried deeper this time.

Allowing no one to get close, because they want only
to destroy peace after gaining confidence and trust.

Living alone, sad and devastated by the lack of
caring shown, burying life so it will not be a burden
for anyone else any longer.