Condemned. Poem by Kelli Richards

My life should be condemned,
So why can you not see?
This life is safe for no one,
This lifes not safe for me.

I'm going down a dead-end road,
I dreamed of kisses and hugs.
Instead I got stuck with worse,
My road was paved with lies and drugs.

I wish they were here to support me,
And to help me find my dreams.
So I put on a smile to make them believe,
That I am happy or so it seems.

No one knows that I have been hurt,
But the bruises stay on my heart.
I cannot talk to anyone about my pain,
Beacause when I do, I don't know where to start.

This pain seems never-ending,
When you feel betrayed by your family.
You feel as if no ones there,
And the pain is just to deep for them to see.

My life should be condemned,
No one deserves this pain.
I wanted fairytale happy endings,
But in the end its all the same.

So many hardships to endure,
Between broken promiss and lies.
Maybe if someone took the time,
They could see the story in my eyes.

Mom was on drugs and in jail,
For the most part of my life.
But spending time with them,
Just mostly caused them strife.

See I know I'm not a perfect kid,
But the blame should not be on me.
My life should be condemned
And I wish that they could see.

I promise to be a better person,
If you could grant me one wish.
And If I decide to change,
Maybe you can consider this.

My old life should be condemned,
And my family and I could start over new.
I will do anything you say
Just please do all you can do.

Once I have my real family,
There will be no reason to feel any pain.
I'll have the one thing thats missing,
And I'll be happy again.