Depression Poem by Shelley L Baxter

My mind is numb and I feel lethargic,
I can not think straight,
Like a plane set on auto pilot,
I go through the motions of the day,
without even pondering specific thoughts.
I have been here before...
but not like this~it hurts so bad.
My face distorted and cold,
I reach out to you in hopes,
You will save me too-
as I have saved others, numerous times,
or at least that is what they claim.
My shoulders are slumped and sore.
Pain runs like electricity through my veins,
affecting me like a cold windy rain strorm,
paralizes and pierces the skin-
til I am chilled to the bone...
or at least that is how it feels.
My feet can not carry me no more,
because I am unsure of what is in store,
for my life and my sense of well being
has officially flown out the window.
I wander on foot all around hoping...
I will find the me that longs to be found.
My body now weary and weak,
I have run from the things that I feel I must seek.
For me there is nothing more,
until the puzzle I am building is restored...
finished in a way that brings peace.


(2006)