Desire For Vs. Usefulness Of Life Poem by Angelina Pandian

Sunken eyes filled with pain
Lying on a waterbed
Carted around from Ward
To Scan, to Pathology
Lab to lab pushed and pulled
Waiting outside Radiology
I saw her crumpled and spent
No more life to limbs they speak
In hushed whisper her kin with
A bewildered look on their face.
I wonder after seeing her plight
“Why isn’t it legal, for us
To decide, when to die? ”
When the body is broken
And can not walk further on
Can’t we lay down the cards
Say, “I’ve lived my life
Of no more use I can be
Either to my family or society
So, no more, I call it Quits”
Or is it that deep down under
We still desire to live – Beg
Borrow, hire or buy one more hour
With the ones we love!
I sat on the hospital bench
And wondered and wondered
Is this life then useless?
If it can no more perform
Its work, duties and goals,
Does a life become useless?
Just because it can no more take care
Of it’s own personal needs
And has become dependant on others
For simple essential chores – Wash
Wipe, clean or eat and turn about!
The answer came blinding bright
Suddenly springing from within
My own ignorant questioning mind,
As long as the spirit within lives
As long as the soul is able
To reach, to teach some value
Some experience from its life
Courage, faith, patience
Goodness, love not lost, but
Poured out to those around
Then it is not our desire
Or usefulness in life
But, God’s desire – To
Keep us alive…
For His purpose [use]….
In our life!