Disaster Of Love Poem by Fatima Obaid

have you ever felt like i do?
the time I passed without you
the nights passed with your memories
can you feel that pain time
i have gone through?
i wish you would ever come again
and see how my life was
and how it is now?
i wish you would ever see back
and find me still standing back to back
where you left me alone
i wish you ever look into my eye
and find the fire of revenge
revenge of the untold tragedies,
you left me for;
i wish you just ever look deep into my smile
that's not a smile but a war
i wish you would ever see my heart
how pure it was with love
and how it's dirty with hatred
i wish you would just ever see
what i am is not what i was
how pretty i was and so cruel am now
how happy i was and so ruin Am now
how selfless i was and so selfish am now
i wish you would ever come see
the brightness of my shining eye
this is nothing but tears
tears of fresh yesterday
years have gone but they're still fresh
it seems as if it was just now
when you broke me and left me
without any reason, reason, reason?
i wish i could show you my heart
how crumbled it is with your words
words of not truth but lies
Every single lie you told me
every single lie you showed me
i wish you would ever come to me
so that i can make you feel what i do
and then I'll ask you how it feels
when one's self is down in one's own eye.