I don't want to deal with it
that's why I lock up in my room.
there's so much going on around me:
friction, madness, illness, sadness...
locking it out is the only way
to remain sane, and whole
I feel sort of like the eye
of a destructive southern hurricane
people probably think it's crazy
that I remain so calm
in the midst of it all
The truth is a little different
because when I open that door,
all the dirt, debris, and fierce winds
come rushing at me, so overwhelmingly
And I don't want to deal with it
that's why I lock up in my room, you see.
there's too much going on around me
but I'll have to come out, and deal with it sometime
I'll have to bear witness
to the aftermath
At your age I am sure, this is an exaggeration! I don't deny that such fears can enslave anybody at all ages. Generally people suffer from insomnia at a late age. Fear is a wasp with poisonous talons and when stung, it will destroy our mental health. Speaking of fear is a way of alleviating our fear. Through poetry we allow a kind of healing by venting out all that is suppressed. Nika.... I wish you sound sleep in the ensuing nights!
We don't get to choose our family members the way we pick our friends, or even dispose of them if need be. This poem lets you vent your righteous anger. You do need to seek a sanctuary so you can keep some measure of calm. Because as you say, someday I will bear the witness to the aftermath, and you have to reserve your psychic energy for the aftermath when the worthiest and unworthiest will both need your help. And you will give it because it will be the end-game and because you are innately ONE WHO HELPS! !
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
I know how difficult it is to deal with such a situation. But to remain sane and whole is so important! Losing one's calm in such dire situations is even more detrimental. So, a kind of escapism by keeping yourself shut inside a closet is the better way to deal with it! Hope the tension eases out at the earliest! Great write Nika!