Foolish Girl Poem by Holly Jamestone

You owned my heart, you bruised my soul
All which I let you do
I thought you'd give me more than crumbs
If I gave love to you

Instead I got mere fragments
Instead of the whole bone
Sloppy seconds, used-up time
As if I were alone

The more I gave, the more you took
Till I was upside-down
The sky was dark, as was your heart
Your scowling, surly frown

At times I questioned who I was
If I had only been, just this or that
Or someone else
You'd love me till the end

I often was neglected and
With no way to break through
I even felt quite ugly
Though adored by all but you

The only way my life could change
Is if I looked inside
And searched my heart and all its voids
For which I'd traded pride

My self-respect has slapped me for not
Guarding how I feel
Urging me toward dignity
Not even you can steal

Until then I'll be far from you
My strength forever growing
I left you, with my needs unmet
Your heart not one worth knowing

(9-5-2000)
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