Forever And Always. Poem by Dakota Ellerton

I was as guarded as ever.
Sweet lies,
pierce an ugly truth.
If my life were taken from me,
it'd be a cruel end for us.
You'd have to be the last,
as you could never be the first.
Caressing secrets,
gentle to the thought.
My minds twisting over the images,
it was so beautiful.
I can hardly imagine anything but,
still, I fight to forget.
My chest becomes constricted,
as I claw at it.
It burns, it pains.
Forever, and always.
We'd repaired such a dismantle,
and tried to frogive.
We're still too rough,
we're still too pretend.
Not a dime in our pockets,
and it had never made a difference.
White sheets, blue gown,
and all I needed was you.
You'd denied my company,
time and time again.
What reasons did you think condemed me there?
I tried to hold steady,
to balance for you.
You'd thrown me to the wall,
pinning me to stare into your eyes.
What anger and passion you'd shown me.
The pain I couldn't describe,
reminded me how real I was.
Life is inevitable,
death is responsibility.

PART II

Such thing's etched into my being,
my design.
You've shown me a world of mistrust,
a world I'd do better to have kept stranger.
Closure has never found us,
never sought us out.
We'd rebelled against honesty,
thinking love could sustain us.
You and I are slowly dying.
I couldn't think of taking you down with me,
the sad faces would be torture.
Though I was never disappointed pur say,
I was truely broken.
You'd cursed my life,
slipping poison in my ear through devistating words.
I have sacraficed years of my life,
believing in you.
My liver could only listen so long.
The faith I lack,
has left timing to wither against us.
Though you may find it a blessing to save my life,
time has never favored us.
Have we done such wrong, you and I?
It's not that great of a sin.
I could embrace the punishment,
knowing I'd had you.