Grateful For Two Valuable Things Poem by Brittany Brown

I created a life that only exist within my mind.
Sometimes I wonder why is it so hard to find.
'You're young, you still have time' a quote that's true but hopeless at times.
I work and pay bills like all adults do, so why is it hard to find the life I created within my mind?
I have a daughter, who has inspired me by far.
I think all the time I hope when she is my age she will have accomplished all she had in mind.
I want her to look back and not regret a thing, because at one time those decisions in her past were what she wanted at that time.
I tend to consistently remind myself that all my decisions leading to my life now were what I wanted at one time.
I feel selfish yet I feel hopeful.
I feel like even though my decisions led me here, there is a reason my existence is here.
I was born three months early, so there was a chance I could've been taken early, but God found fit to leave me here.
So why? I ask myself at times because I haven't accomplished one thing I had in mind.
Maybe that's it, I spend all my time planning for what I want not for I what I have and how to see the beauty in it.
I have a loving husband and a healthy beautiful daughter.
With just those two things, I shall look no farther.