He And I Had Been Friends Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Remember when you rejected my apology?
And I did my best...
With effort that still makes me wonder,
'Why'?
Why was I then so forgiving.
Giving you the benefit of a doubt.
And when you said 'No'...
I felt you had crushed my heart.
And you knew your response would do it!

Remember when you rejected my apology?
And I did my best...
With effort that still makes me wonder,
'Why'?
And I am wondering 'why' right now.
Why are you here,
To beg from me the same.
And 'why' do you appear to me now...
Bigger than the fool,
I could never be,
Again!

I forgave you then...
For doing what you did to me.
But I would never forgive myself...
If I allowed you,
To play with and/or use my emotions.
No!
I can not revive,
What is not alive there for you!
No!
Go back to your abusive husband.
Your lover who had once made me believe,
He and I had been friends.