Here And Gone Again Poem by Hannah Davies

He turned up in the middle of the night at my front door
And asked me if I was really sure?
His wife had found his phone
THe truth had now been shown.

I was stunned beyond belief
But for there to be no more secrets which gave me slight relief
She finally knew about us
But she must have felt like she had been bit by a bus.

I felt so bad
Didn't plan to make her upset or mad
I couldn't believe he was actually stood in front of me
What would the next step be?

Of course I was delighted to have him here
But I know our actions to others was most unfair
He told me that it was me he wanted to be with
And my heart to him, I wanted to give.

Then when I returned to work
His kids showed up, make a complaint and went berserk
Work then had to send me home
Didn't want to risk his kids catching me on my own.

The next day he went to talk to his wife
He had to decide what to do with his life
WHen get got back he was quiet and went for a walk
And when he got back, he wanted to talk.

I knew what he was going to say
I couldn't look him in the eye, I knew he couldn't stay
Watching him cry was so awful to see
As he continued to hug and say sorry to me.

I could see how much this was tearing him up inside
So my true emotions i tried to hide
I tried to keep the tears at bay
Was far too numb to have anything to say.

I love him too much so I could never make him chose
Between me and his family, I knew I would lose
We thought that because of the complaint, I could get the sack
So to his wife and kids he had to go back.

He kept saying he didn't want this to end
As long as he's happy, I know ober time my broken heart will mend
The moment he left I completely broke down
Once again it was the return of my frown.

Thought maybe I was also to blame
Cause I had freaked out on him with flash-backs, I was so ashamed
I hadn't realised how much I had fallen for him
Why does loving him feel like a sin? ?

Now at work I have been moved floors
Until the dust settles some more
I really miss our texts and chats
SInce he's gone, I've felt really flat.

All I want to know is that he's safe and OK
Wish we can still be friends, but don't think his wife would see it that way
I'm sorry for causing any hurt or pain
But I can't help my feelings for him and truth be known I would do it all over again!