Here I Am Once Again Poem by ESPN CHICK

Here I am still putting on that fake smile trying to make it real
Trying to hide these tears behind my hazel eyes
Here I am trying to erase my fears
Trying to cover up all the pain in the mirror

Here I am trying to put a mask on
Trying to fake who I really am on the outside
Here I am all alone trying to pick up the pieces of me
Trying to put my self together again but in the end its pointless

Here I am staring at these four walls
Trying to hide within myself
Here I am pretending that there's nothing wrong
Trying to keep it all together

But how can I sit here tonight still pretending
I'm hanging on wire and I'm barely hanging on
Here I am fighting this battle all over again
Here I am weak as can be but holding on being strong

Here I am once again facing myself in the mirror
Facing reality, knowing that this isn't me
I'm throwing the fake smiles and the mask away
I'm standing up for what I've known all along

This battle may never end
But in the end I know that God will help fight this battle
I know he will dry my tears away
He'll heal the wounds

So here I am once again knowing you washed away what I used to be
Here I am just letting my life go and into your hands
I know I count on you
When I fall I know you will be right there catching me

Here I am, Lord take all of me
Make me and mold me into what you want me to be
I won't put a mask on and pretend that I'm ok
Because I know in the end only You can fix me and with that I surrender all

Aug 6,2011