How About You? Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

Trying to move you with the simplest words
But I know I can not.
Trying to describe every sound, sight, emotion.
But I know I can not.

Perfecting the moment.
Dragging you in kicking and screaming if I must.
Showing the human side of me.

No not the monster your use to seeing.
No not on some foreign oasis.
Right here in a place I call home.
Trying to break apart from the loneliness I feel.
Trying to make it not so real.

Distancing my self from the raging tempers.
Distancing my self that which is the pain inside me.
When painting with these pastels, why is it I don't feel any better?
Like an unwritten letter, I can't stop.
For some reason that can't explain I must keep writing.
Is it a sign I'm still fighting with these demons within?
In the end will I ever beat them?
Or sign my surrender on these dotted lines?

To know is everything to me.
And I just don't.
An answer to the secret of yesterday is not today.
Whispers that keep moving farther and farther away.
Oh no now where did they go?
They were all I have ever known.
I am all alone.
Alone.

Trying not to cry out in desperation.
Trying to be competent.
An escalation to do the best I can for me and no one else.
Yeah you heard me right as I walk down this lonely old street flipping everyone the bird.
I don't need you, but I wouldn't mind meeting you.
Conflicting emotions, with indecisive and jittery actions.

I want it, but I'm not sure and I know I don't have the cure.
How about you?