I Don't Decide Poem by Laura arwen

I'm an eternal
undecided person
I am totally
unable to decide
In the sad
moments I'm aware
to not have
enough challenging entertainment
In some moments
indecision or too
much awareness destroys
me
I'm always undecided
on buying books
Sometimes I imagine
my future and
I see a
lot of loneliness
and tears but
also many obsessions
I am absolutely
certain that I
want to stay
at home
I don't want
to lose my
imagination
I'm oppressed from
many things
Many times I
feel different and
miserable
I want to
have a decent
life
I have a
long path to
complete my existence
Sometimes I want
to punish myself
for my miserable
life
I don't see
any good solution
for my disorder
I'm in peace
with my morality
I want reach
a new level
in life but
I'm afraid to
do it