I Don'T Know Poem by ESPN CHICK

I don't know if I can handle another day of this
Of this pain inside
This pain thats filled me up from head to toe

I don't know if I can handle another day without you
Cause you always took away this pain
Wondering where you are I need you to take this pain away some more

I don't know if I can handle being being broken for life
That's what it feels like to me
Being broken forever and ever never will be whole

I don't know if I can look at life the same
With all those tries of suicide
All those times where I couldn't die felt like life was a drag

I don't know if I can look at myself in the mirror at be ok with what I see
Cause I've covered up my lies for so long
I don't know who I am anymore

I don't know if I can look at him and smile ever again
With all those lies that he told and leaving me hanging on a broken wire
I don't think I will ever be able to look at him the same without tears

I don't know if I can handle this pain but I will try
I don't know if I can handle another day without you but I'm not gonna cry over you
I don't know if I can handle being broken forever but that's not gonna stop me from trying to be strong

I don't know if I can look at life the same without wanting to cry but I swear I'm alright
I don't know if I can look at myself in the mirror and be ok with what I see but life goes on I can't let that bring me down
I don't know if I can look at him and smile ever again after all those times we talked he made me the happiest girl around but somehow and someway I've got to pull myself through

May 6,2008