I Just Wanna Read /Anger Within Me Poem by Melanie Weeks

Quick in coming,
These flashes of anger.
I feel remorse after,
I always do, you know.

I like to read, you see,
But I ALWAYS get interuped.
I don't get to spend as much
Time with my books
As I used to.
I get angery and frustrated.
Like a fire starting to burn.

A black snake,
It feels,
Is coiling on my back.
Or is it dark feathers
Of the evil side of me?

I growl, I moan
I even snarl.

Today was supposed to be
A day of rest for me.
Listening to celtic music,
Nose stuck in a book.
Yes, I'd even text or talk.
But Dagit! Not so much!

Every time the cell goes off,
I jerk my head twords it.
My eyes wide angery,
I sometime growl.

I even plead for them to leave me be,
But of course, they don't.

Smoke and ash swirl within me,
I'm temped to throw and destroy.
Alas, I can't.
Some things, I can't replace.

Oh for the love of art,
I wish I had more paint,
More brushes,
More pastels!
I'd've painted these things
That are within me.
So noone or nothing could be harmed.

But, of course,
As these things in life go.
My love of art and reading can't save me now.
I'm too far gone.

Lord, God, please help me! I'm slowly giving in,
The darkness is consuming me.
Save me, Please!
Bring me back into sunshine and roses.

Don't let me sit in the dark.
I'm scared I'll hurt
The ones I love.
Save me from
The snake, smoke and ash!

I just want to read,
But they won't let me be.

This anger within me
Is struggling to be free.......