I Never Told You Poem by Standing in the Silence of Your Pain

There were so many things I never told you.



I never got to say goodbye,

Even though I knew you’d die.

I never told you that all that I wanted to be,

Was everything you were to me.

I never told you not to be upset,

When you thought you were ruining my life.

I never told you I wouldn’t remember you the way,

I saw you when you were in the hospital that day.

I never told you how you meant more to me,

Than schoolwork, my friends, and everything.

I never told you how it upset me when you forgot my name,

How life without you wouldn’t be the same.

I never told you how much it meant to me,

That you said you were proud of me.

I never told you thank you for teaching me,

That life was short, to treasure every memory.

I never told you how much I’d miss sneaking you ice cream cones,

And teaching you how to work your iPod, plugging in your headphones.

I never told you how much I’d miss trying to beat you at 3: 13,

Seeing you every day, and never winning the Tic-Tac game.

I never told you how I want to be a nurse,

That helping you was not a curse.

I never told you how I came to love helping sick people,

And how that’s what I want to do with life.



I never got to say goodbye,

Even though I knew you’d die,

And how hard it was to watch Daddy cry,

And not have your shoes to tie.

I never told you all you taught me or how

I will see you again in Heaven.

I never told you so many, many things,

But somehow Paps,

I know you knew and one day I will tell you everything.