I´ve Tried To Kill God Poem by obed Souza

I´ve tried to snatch you away from me
As an atheist I named myself,
I´ve tried to blot your name out from heaven
I´ve cried out loud you were dead
Up and down
Below and above running from you,
I ´ve run for live to find death only.
I soared high trying to hide myself away
from evidences of the divine I´ve stripped over daily.
You hunt me
You chase me
I couldn´t tell you from me …
You see me through
I´ve tried to be unholy and ungodly
I´ve tried to make a stand to prove my case right
I´ve tried to do my best
Philosophy, science, logic, mystic, religion …
What could I do, but empty -handed,
Ending up being pulled into your arms
by work of your grace
And by resting on your love for me
My search went deep a path toward my inmost being
And by faith my eyes wide open
My misery and solitude
Found rest in you.
What I thought to be afar
Now, to the reach of my heart
This mistery of being one …. One in you.