If Only... Poem by Alicia Meyers

My heart is aching, my knees are weaking, my life is exploding, and my soul is breaking. I believe in God, but I suppose he hates me, I can't live like this - anymore. My friends are fading away, my life is screwed up, I don't know what is happening anymore. If only a miracle can happen, and everything will be alright, and everything will be the same or at least better then it was. I'm torn up, and old, like a piece of paper crumbled up and thrown away. I feel like I'm about to burst into a billion tears, but whenever I try to cry in front of someone, it only ends up in isolating myself away from people I love. I trully feel like this didn't happen for a reason, that's why I believe in God. I cry myself to sleep at night, and I wonder what life would be like if nothing had gone wrong. No one really understands me, but in somewhat some people do. If only there was a way that life could be easier, if life wasn't so hard. I want to cry so bad, and hold my sister while I think about all the bad things that had happened. If only God answered my prayers so easy and fast, then maybe things will be okay. If only there could be some way, some how, this life of mine could get better. If only...