Inspiration Be Damned Poem by Margaret Alice

Very worried about my positive book, it
recommended inspiration – thinking about
how great it would feel to do jobs I dislike
first, not by motivating myself with fear for
negative consequences, but being inspired
by expectations of how good it would feel
when it was done

Did my Production Sheet first, explained my
life moment by moment, all inspired – just to
be met with disdain, NO positive feelings at
all – inspiration be damned, nothing came of
it; I have to do another one – not even cold
motivation can force me towards this one –
the book also says never try to fix

Something that’s broken, my relations with
siblings and parents are SO broken, it says do
not try to fix it, so I don’t, but I’m wondering
how independent I can stand to become...