Intimately Or Not Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

No one I am with,
Intimately or not.
Will I permit myself,
To be shadowed...
With my being blocked.

I am meant to rise,
As if from the skies...
Sunlight appears,
To excite with delight...
And,
With a promise that shows clear.

I want and need to astonish.
Not fade away...
Behind a Sunset,
Forever remembered.

No one I am with,
Intimately or not.
Will I permit myself,
To be shadowed...
With my being blocked.

That is not on my list,
Of preferences.

Too many years,
Of dedicated discipline...
Has gone into 'this'.
With devotion and sacrifice,
I have enjoyed.
Not to carelessly be dismissed.

And it has been done,
At the expense of no one...
I want shunned.
But I have chosen in my life,
To love and share.
Not to initiate,
Assumptions to spare.

I want everyone to know,
I am there...
To give and take.
I will never be one,
To have my presence faked.

I want everyone to know,
I am here!
And I 'will' be there as well,
For anyone I share myself...
In a comfort both of us will dwell.

But I will not let it believed,
I shadow anyone...
To acknowledge that they lead.
Intimately or not...
My weight is my own,
To elevate, cast or seen to heave.

I want that known,
As my responsibility!