Just Like A Switch, I Can Turn Off My Emotions Poem by mona martinez

I just want to hide,
I want to disappear,
I hate feeling like....
everything overwhelming,
and just like that,
it like a switch that I can turn off,
in my mind and make it go away,
only it comes with consequences,
the feeling comes back harder,
without warning,
it just comes rushing back in my mind,
like a flood that was waiting to be release,
it's a feeling I hate,
yet don't know no other way to deal,
it comes second nature to me,
to be able to turn off a part of my mind,
that I don't want to deal with,
but at the same time,
I walk through life not feeling anything,
when I do,
it either feel the pain,
or to not feel nothing at all,
lately been choosing not to feel nothing at all.

01/21/13