Lamentations Of A Sad Soul Poem by Elizabeth Jacqueline Mpanga

Sorrow has become such a huge part of my life,
The pain I have felt in my short life is enough to scorch a thousand men to ashes,
When I was young I had so much hope and love,
I was full of trust and forgiveness.

No sooner had someone hurt me than I forgot,
Now my heart has been hardened by too much pain,
My soul is numb with fear,
Fear of being hurt fear of crying.
The fear overwhelms me and stops me cold in my track

What happened to the innocent wide eyed child that once was me?
I will tell you, she died along with all the feeling,
She died along with all the guilt,
She had been hurt too much she ran away and hide,
She hides from humanity and love
She hides from second chances because she does not feel safe

What is it in us humans that make us inflict pain on each other?
Why are humans so uncaring towards one another?
Life when I look at it looks so hopeless,
There is so much hate, greed, lust, vengeance
My goodness what ever happened to loving ones neighbors?

Everywhere I go I see pain, suffering, hurting, and tears.
No longer do I see smiles and hand shakes
Hugs and kisses between lovers, or loved ones
What a shame indeed.

Sorrow has now become my home,
Sadness my bed,
Regret my pillow,
Tears my covers,
Depression, my best friend.

Elizabeth Jacqueline Mpanga