Learning To Live Agan... Poem by Sebastian Melmoth

Witnessing the slow death of destiny
Anguish trembles the sickness in my head
Constantly questioning my mortality
No journey of purpose to pursue anymore
Confused about my existence
Topsy-turvey world turned on its head
Longing for things to be as they used to be
Knowing things will never be the same again
Longing to be me, whole again
Outer appearance different to the person I am within
A broken shell with a cracked soul
Drowning in the pit of despair, living in mental hell
Reaching out to the out of reach
Searching in vain for a happy ending
How will I climb out from this grave I have dug for myself?
Shovel gets heavier each time it hits the ground
Things always seem worse before they get better
Will there be time to change? Will there be an easier answer?
An epiphany awaits, to shake me to my senses
Make a list of goals don't overload but remember baby steps
Please let me move forward and build the confidence to learn to live again.