Life's Struggle Poem by Laquory Jones

Life has been a struggle for everyone it
Seems either you have it or careening
There's no in between
You sit there hoping that someone
Would likely intervene and tell you that
Nothing is ever what it seems
But tell me what that truly means

When you're days from eviction and not
To even mention you're working at
A dead-end job trying to write for
Anyone to hear you out
But inside there's pressure and
Unreasonable doubt sometimes you
Just want to shout as you're going through
These bouts hoping to be found
Among a 'Lost Crowd' Though as stupid
As it sounds trying to break in a smile
Let's go ahead and walk at least a mile

Just to hide the feeling of pain and regret
The failure that begins to set in as you
Feel your dreams dying within your hands
Oh what a feeling when you've tried your
Best to get somewhere only to spin
Now you're left to spin as goosebumps
Begins filling up the skin veins constricting
Underneath until you're blue

Tell me what would you do?
Has this ever happened to you?
Now tell me how you're pulling through?
Is your world not collapsing too?
The ground underneath your feet shaking?
(OOOOOOOOH)

Perhaps you can feel my pain
Sometimes I wonder if I tried in vain
Cuts heal but the scars remains
Looking into the mirror as they remind
Me everyday of how emotions comes into
Play many times you can get lost in the fray
Each day feeling like yesterday

No matter how many drugs you take
The numbness is always there to stay
Not that I take drugs but I know a few
Who got lost within that Depressant
Hue combined with that Opioid Stew
I confess I've tried to save a few
Only for the cycle just to continue
Leaving them glued, dazed, and confused
Not knowing their death would ensue

Perhaps that's how my writing lit a fuse
Amplified with my own abuse
Anger infused intensity I'm not sure how
These came to be as I go back remembering
Through my memories of roaming the streets
When my mom would kicked me out at three am
All I ever wanted was
To be heard but I could never find
The words so easily

My pain so embedded deep
Inside I internally weep
To the point that
I'm weeping myself asleep
What's that feeling of defeat?
It's like a masterpiece left incomplete
All I'm saying is that it's
Hard to find something inside that's
Unique I let the tears fall upon my
Tapestry but you don't yet see it
Leaking through my artistry
(Oh pardon me)

Go ahead and be what you're setting your
Mind up to be you may fall down and break
Because it won't be that easy
But when it's all said and done and
Your life's work is finally complete
In the end people will have no choice
But to see everything that you achieved
The accomplishments that cemented
Your legacy so as you take that final bow
Hold your head up high and be proud
Even through the darkness
The light's somewhere shining about
Yeah so no more unreasonable doubts

8/18/2021