Lost And Running Poem by Baby Blue

I lost myself today.
I left it, and just ran away.
my mind is spinning,
and my heart is trembling
and i am caught up in this maddness.

insanity and confusion of the
future, and the past.
mingled together and torn apart.
unrecognizable are each fragment,
each memory of us,
each thought and each emotion.

God help me through this day,
help me to be strong, not only for me
but strong for him.
God give me the courage to smile today,
To see him, say hi, then to gently
look away.

Make these days to not be awkward,
don't remind me,
that i like him, and that he likes
not me, but her.

written 1-26-08