My Almost Rejection Poem by Heart of Ice Die Die Die

The pain inside
beginning to dull
with the depression sinking in once again.
I'm so tired,
it's blurry at the edges.
I'm giving up,
on many things.
Because,
I just don't care anymore.
But, in the end
it wouldn't have mattered.
Because,
it would only have ended in rejection.
So,
I guess I should be thankful.
But,
than why does it feel like I've lost
all reason in life?
Feels like my life is ending
and my time to die is near.
I guess there's no better time to die
than the present.
But,
I know I won't die,
because people still need me.
No matter what they say,
I will always love them.
Despite the fact
that they say they hate me and they want me to die.
I will always suffer
so that I can save them
from the pain.
So,
that pain will never touch them.